AM I HAPPY?

Oct 17, 2018

First Month

I just hit my 1-month mark of things I thought would never happen. I moved to LA to be with my boyfriend and then married him 2 weeks later. In some ways, I left behind my anchor points in Idaho that gave me a barometer of my well-being and progress. My family, friends, job, routine, and in some ways, my religion.

People frequently have asked since this change….’Are you happy?’ In my mind, I would answer. ‘I am. Uh, I think I am. Sheesh, I’m not sure because nothing is familiar and I don’t know what to compare my happiness to.’

New Chapter

As I’m settling into this new chapter of my life, I’m learning the importance of anchor points. Something that feels like home no matter the changes around. A barometer of my well-being and progress. A place to start intertwining with the unfamiliar. That place for me last night was prayer.

And as I knelt and prayed last night, I was reminded of the sweet serenity when I feel after God. A very familiar feeling of warmth, a feeling of home. A critical anchor point that I was neglecting.

Am I happy? I am. And I’m excited to experience the growth and challenges that lie ahead. Working on becoming a better person and adding goodness to the world.

2018-10-19T01:03:55+00:00

About the Author:

2 Comments

  1. Isaac July 8, 2019 at 1:55 am - Reply

    Just found your website and videos and I must say I have enjoyed them. Please keep making videos and blogging. Your experiences encourages the rest of us. Thank you.

  2. Jim Preston August 14, 2019 at 5:14 am - Reply

    I’m not quite sure what to say or how to put it even if I did know.
    I’m in the middle of my own circumstances like you and I’m working out how I should proceed.
    I’ve been LDS all my life and I received a testimony of the church’s veracity and of Heavenly Father very early in my life.
    Still, I’ve lived with my being gay…even accepting it over time, and not seemingly having a problem with it except- I want more than anything to go to the temple and receive my initiation and take my covenants, as I have yet to do this. If I attempt to make my way back from this netherworld my life is going to be unquestionably difficult, maybe even a torment. If I stay, I may never see the face of my beloved Heavenly Father again. I’m not sure which path to take.
    Well enough of my rambling. I’ll wish you the best and follow your vlog…

Leave A Comment